When I am on the computer doing homework for school, I seem to find myself coming over to blogger to break up the monotony of learning about human cells and why our bodies do the things they do. On my blog I can write without grammatical judgement (please don't judge me) and lack of any cerebral depth ( I only have cerebal depth at school.. at home any fart joke makes me laugh). When I am finished I move back to the place where commas and rational thoughts matter.
A friend stopped me the other day and gave me an earnest and concerned look and asked, "Why have you not written in awhile?"......"Is everything okay?".......
I felt the urgency to come up with some grand reason as to why I have a lack of words...why I have been silent for a month......
but......the real reason...
LAZINESS!
For me to write would require some concentration beyond what it requires for me to come up with a creative word in Words With Friends or busting down a particularly hard structure in Angry Birds. I have to put a logical thought in a continuous manner when I write.....and I am to lazy to do that right now.
I am not laying around in my t-shirt and underwear all day watching Real Housewives ( I only do that when the kids go to bed ). I have been organizing the house, exercising, playing with my kids,
......looking for work that will work around my school schedule......
The next two years are going to be crazy....school, work, family.....LIFE....
I am just enjoying the silence before the storm.....and enjoying time with my kiddos this summer....
....I am enjoying sleeping in...
....I am enjoying Kenzie climbing in bed with me in the morning and watching some T.V....
....I am enjoying my morning runs....
....I am enjoying the kids friends and all their giggles as they come and go all day....
....I am enjoying my evening walks with my girls and all stories they share with me....
....I am enjoying our afternoon movie watching just because we can....
....I am enjoying trips to the libraries and the nightly reading of these books....
So my dear friend don't be concerned....life is okay...it is just a quiet summer spent at home.....
just enjoying ......
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
Who's Awesome?
I wish I could give you the complete before and after photo but we will call this half-way there photo. Okay, so this before photo was taken right after I had Makenzie but that was basically my starting weight when I started this whole diet thing...... my heaviest weight and what I consider my starting weight.
I think I should get props for not dolling myself up for the after photo...I am au-natural....but hey we are not criticizing the hair and makeup right?!
Me and the kids were flipping through old pictures today and it was one of my twins that said, "Wow, you have lost weight mom!"...so I knew I had this shirt in the back of my closet so I put it on and realized it was big so I had to kinda cinch the back and they took a pic of me...remember... au-natural.....
I am half way there at this point......
so today I took a moment to say........
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
79 DAYS....79
Summer has officially begun. The kids are home for the next 79 days.....79 days.......79
Supplies, verbal exchanges, and nourishment needed for day one so far has been.....
* 3 bowls of Lucky Charms
* 2 AAA batteries for mini Wii remote
* 2 tsps children's ibuprofen
* 1 hug and TLC for child that upchucked her Lucky Charms and children's ibuprofen
* 1 blankie, teddy bear, and pillow pet to console sick child
* 2 cold cut sandwiches
* 2 glasses of milk
* 2 band-aids for child doing dishes and slicing finger on a knife
* 1 glass of ginger ale for sick child
* 1 hug and TLC for child that upchucked her ginger ale
* 2 bananas with nutella
* 3 verbal smackdowns involving threatening grounding for summer if chores were not done today
* 2 reminders to brush teeth
* 1 hug and TLC for child that upchucked who knows what at this point
* 1 bedroom now being used as an imaginary " HIGH FASHION CORPORATE OFFICE"
* 1 round of Wii London Olympic Games gymnastic competition
* 1 threat to stop demonstrating Olympic wrestling on the couch
* 2 BBQ burgers and a handful of sweet potato fries
* 2 glasses of crystal light
* 1 hug and TLC for child that upchucked nothing.......just dry heaves at this point...
* 2 bowls of orange sherbet
* 1 small glass of Gatorade for sick child
* 1 used notebook now filled with numerous drawings and scribbles
* 2 reminders to brush teeth and wash face
* 3 I love you's and goodnights
* 1 book read to sick child and hopes of healthy tomorrow
* 2 books read in bed
* 3 lights being turned out to rest up to prepare for the .....
next day.......
79 days....79
Supplies, verbal exchanges, and nourishment needed for day one so far has been.....
* 3 bowls of Lucky Charms
* 2 AAA batteries for mini Wii remote
* 2 tsps children's ibuprofen
* 1 hug and TLC for child that upchucked her Lucky Charms and children's ibuprofen
* 1 blankie, teddy bear, and pillow pet to console sick child
* 2 cold cut sandwiches
* 2 glasses of milk
* 2 band-aids for child doing dishes and slicing finger on a knife
* 1 glass of ginger ale for sick child
* 1 hug and TLC for child that upchucked her ginger ale
* 2 bananas with nutella
* 3 verbal smackdowns involving threatening grounding for summer if chores were not done today
* 2 reminders to brush teeth
* 1 hug and TLC for child that upchucked who knows what at this point
* 1 bedroom now being used as an imaginary " HIGH FASHION CORPORATE OFFICE"
* 1 round of Wii London Olympic Games gymnastic competition
* 1 threat to stop demonstrating Olympic wrestling on the couch
* 2 BBQ burgers and a handful of sweet potato fries
* 2 glasses of crystal light
* 1 hug and TLC for child that upchucked nothing.......just dry heaves at this point...
* 2 bowls of orange sherbet
* 1 small glass of Gatorade for sick child
* 1 used notebook now filled with numerous drawings and scribbles
* 2 reminders to brush teeth and wash face
* 3 I love you's and goodnights
* 1 book read to sick child and hopes of healthy tomorrow
* 2 books read in bed
* 3 lights being turned out to rest up to prepare for the .....
next day.......
79 days....79
Monday, May 21, 2012
Why is it?
Why is it.............
That when you are try to make food lifestyle changes...oh hell, lets call it what it is, DIET!.. That everything in your life that you should not eat suddenly becomes an insatiable desire that will not go away? I have three sugar cookies sitting on the counter that make me salivate every time I pass them. I swear one spoke to me and said, "C'mon...you know you want be baby!".....and I swear I answered it back, "Mmmm....yes I do"...as I licked my lips.......
Okay...I will stop before this turns into the next Fifty Shades of Grey novel....but instead called, Fifty Shades of Frosting......
Why is it..........
That sometimes a child can be more profound than the most brilliant of adults? I was driving in to Costco so I could get some healthy snacking items in my house, so that me and the sugar cookies would stop flirting with one another. My youngest car seat has been in the same place in our Ford Expedition forever now. She has decided that she is tired of this spot and every time we get in the car she moves her booster seat to somewhere else in the car. Really she only has three other spots she can move to but these small moves are apparently profound to her. On our ride in to Salt Lake she says, "Mom, moving my car seat is good for me." ...... I play along by saying, "Why is that?".....She responds by saying, "Because it gives me a whole new look at things, I can see things I have not seen before...she pauses.....and says, "Everyone should move to different seat every once in awhile so they can get a new look at things."
I know the statement was literal for her....she just thinks that everyone should see a different scenic view every once in awhile...or... that was her hint that she would like to ride shotgun at some point in her life. However, the statement made me smile...so simple.....so right. So many hot button issues in the world...maybe some of us should just look at things from a new place...and just maybe we could gain a new perspective.
Why is it.....
I can go over my legs with a razor 50 times and still miss a patch of hair on the back of my legs?
Why is it.....
I had a huge list of things I wanted to get done this summer before I head back to school this fall.....and I have done none of it so far? I will try to cram it all in to the last two weeks of summer because that is how I roll!
Why is it .......
I really want to make this now .......and eat the whole thing...four key words...Pretzel, Cookie, Peanut Butter, Pie...enough said
Why is it....
I will never have abs that look like this?................
.....four key words......Pretzel, Cookie, Peanut Butter, Pie.....enough said!
That when you are try to make food lifestyle changes...oh hell, lets call it what it is, DIET!.. That everything in your life that you should not eat suddenly becomes an insatiable desire that will not go away? I have three sugar cookies sitting on the counter that make me salivate every time I pass them. I swear one spoke to me and said, "C'mon...you know you want be baby!".....and I swear I answered it back, "Mmmm....yes I do"...as I licked my lips.......
Okay...I will stop before this turns into the next Fifty Shades of Grey novel....but instead called, Fifty Shades of Frosting......
Why is it..........
That sometimes a child can be more profound than the most brilliant of adults? I was driving in to Costco so I could get some healthy snacking items in my house, so that me and the sugar cookies would stop flirting with one another. My youngest car seat has been in the same place in our Ford Expedition forever now. She has decided that she is tired of this spot and every time we get in the car she moves her booster seat to somewhere else in the car. Really she only has three other spots she can move to but these small moves are apparently profound to her. On our ride in to Salt Lake she says, "Mom, moving my car seat is good for me." ...... I play along by saying, "Why is that?".....She responds by saying, "Because it gives me a whole new look at things, I can see things I have not seen before...she pauses.....and says, "Everyone should move to different seat every once in awhile so they can get a new look at things."
I know the statement was literal for her....she just thinks that everyone should see a different scenic view every once in awhile...or... that was her hint that she would like to ride shotgun at some point in her life. However, the statement made me smile...so simple.....so right. So many hot button issues in the world...maybe some of us should just look at things from a new place...and just maybe we could gain a new perspective.
Why is it.....
I can go over my legs with a razor 50 times and still miss a patch of hair on the back of my legs?
Why is it.....
I had a huge list of things I wanted to get done this summer before I head back to school this fall.....and I have done none of it so far? I will try to cram it all in to the last two weeks of summer because that is how I roll!
Why is it .......
I really want to make this now .......and eat the whole thing...four key words...Pretzel, Cookie, Peanut Butter, Pie...enough said
Why is it....
I will never have abs that look like this?................
.....four key words......Pretzel, Cookie, Peanut Butter, Pie.....enough said!
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Just Catching Up
I am done with school for the summer........hmmmm....I am a bit lost because...I have no papers, quizzes, reading, tests.....I have not had a summer off of school since I started...
...honestly...it feels great.....I need this summer off to recharge my mental batteries....I took two naps last week?!..and I didn't even pull out my laptop... I cleaned house and watched T.V.....I am beginning to feel normal again. I am going to begin looking for a part time job for the summer...extra cash and some work experience in the health field.
I got my final grades..my final grades at USU...I ended with a 3.82....dang anatomy and college algebra...they knocked me off my perfect record.....math, I suck at...anatomy I blame on the professor, he sucked at teaching it......However I got an A in pathology this semester...next to anatomy it was one of my toughest courses...I am proud of that A! If you saw my textbook and all those big words in it you would be proud too!
Last weekend my mom and Aunt Jackie came to town. They did some shopping at our new mall downtown...gorgeous mall!
Jill
The survivor ceremony
Jill...being Jill.....showing her mighty strength...she cracks me up!
...honestly...it feels great.....I need this summer off to recharge my mental batteries....I took two naps last week?!..and I didn't even pull out my laptop... I cleaned house and watched T.V.....I am beginning to feel normal again. I am going to begin looking for a part time job for the summer...extra cash and some work experience in the health field.
I got my final grades..my final grades at USU...I ended with a 3.82....dang anatomy and college algebra...they knocked me off my perfect record.....math, I suck at...anatomy I blame on the professor, he sucked at teaching it......However I got an A in pathology this semester...next to anatomy it was one of my toughest courses...I am proud of that A! If you saw my textbook and all those big words in it you would be proud too!
Last weekend my mom and Aunt Jackie came to town. They did some shopping at our new mall downtown...gorgeous mall!
Mom came down to see Makenzie's dance recital. The theme this year was, "Going to the Movies".
Makenzie danced to, "When You Wish Upon A Star" and "All the Single Ladies". Makenzie has lived in her costumes since the recital....if she could, she would live everyday in dress up and costumes especially if it is sparkly or princessy.....
Adrian's 40th Birthday was Wednesday...we celebrated by leaving the kids behind and going to the movies. We saw Avengers...pretty darn good. Tried a new recipe...ended up making it twice this week....it is called earthquake cake and it is yummy..it is simple and yummy.....if you like german chocolate cake you will give it a thumbs up....I am working on losing that 30 pounds by the end of summer so I only had one slice out of those two cakes I baked.....I think I should get two thumbs up for amazing self control.
Saturday morning I got to go do my one of favorite traditions. I walked in the Susan G Komen walk and it was as inspirational as usual. I went in support of mom as always (MOTHER! You will come down for this next year!) but also the same friend I also walked for last year, Jill. Jill is going through her second round of chemo because it spread to her lungs but her prognosis looks good and she is beating that insidious cancer. My aunt is also a breast cancer survivor and she was there but I could not find her amongst the large crowd ( so I borrowed one of my cousins pictures she posted on Facebook...thanks :) )...come to find out she was holding one of the signs in the survivor parade .....she is also one of those strong inspiring ladies.
My Aunt Dixie and her daughters Chrystal and Sabrina ( Sorry.. I had to poach your picture)
Jill
On our 5K walk...new route this year....
The survivor ceremony
My sweet neighbor Lisa
Jill...being Jill.....showing her mighty strength...she cracks me up!
Saturday we had my mother-in-laws famous gumbo...once again trying to watch what I eat...but...I will never pass up a gumbo and hush puppies...and I had just walked a 5k so a few extra yummy calories was not going to kill me.
Makenzie is done with school this week and the twins the following week...on to summer....no grand plans... just a part time job...and....
some much needed mental R and R!
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Fighting My Inner Demon....Cupcakes!
So lets talk diet...weight loss......cutting of calories......exercise.......
For all you ladies who were blessed with the skinny genetics...Dang you and your superior genetics!
For all the ladies who fight the fat but take care of yourself and exercise...I aspire to be like you!
For all the ladies who yo yo but never can find that healthy groove.....I feel your pain!
For all you ladies you go to horrible extremes to lose weight...STOP!! It is not worth the harm you are doing to yourself physically...mentally....just STOP!!!
I am not sure why I picked this body before I came to this earth?! I can hear the description of my physical appearance now.....Thick hair that is neither straight or curly but frizzy...Dry flaky skin.....thin lips....stumpy legs with ample thighs....large buttocks....average height......and the metabolism speed of a sloth....I am positive I said I will take it and the next physical body that came up for grabs was Gisele Budchen.
I actually lost almost 50 pounds last year...and then...well life happened...stress happened....
this happened.....
and though I did not put all the weight back on I put back on a lot of it....boooooo.......
So after the holidays and things settled down I found myself getting ready to go on a cruise, and my summer capris not wanting to button......so me and my dust riddled treadmill had a heart to heart conversation.
It went something like this:
Oh treadmill, you have sat and gathered dust for the last fewmonths years and I am sorry for that but it is time to become reacquainted again. It is time that we become friends again, you and I will become allies on this war I fight with fat. Be kind to me...don't spit me off and send me sailing in to the wall behind me.......
...be patient with me and my slow speeds to begin with......work my butt till I am dripping sweat and don't let me stop until I am finished with my workout.
So I began exercising in the morning..I started barely walking a mile..then I felt myself increasing the speed and the distance...soon I was running......
I know I look similar to this when I run.......
But I am in the privacy of my basement... so I embrace my awkwardness and just go with it.......
I run for about 20-25 minutes in the morning and then if my evening allows it I run for another 20-25 minutes....it works for me..it works for me to break it up..I can't exercise for hours straight...I have attention problems and get distracted easily. When my muscles are not slightly sore the next day I increase my speed and distance to feel that little bit of burn. I will start some toning and strength training over the summer.....I am taking baby steps and right now I am just working on cardio....
I am watching what I eat but I am not a food Nazi...I eat three balanced meals...and grab a few healthy snacks throughout the day. I treat myself to some goodies here and there but always in moderation. I will have a healthy relationship with food at some point in my life...I love food.. but I don't need to LOVE food.
... my body is saying thank you and giving me lots of inside hugs....
I have lost how many pounds in 10 weeks?..........
Not biggest loser kind of weight loss but it is just right for me...some weeks I lose nothing...some weeks I lose 4 pounds.....I weigh myself once a week and cheer if I lose some and shrug it off when nothing has been lost.
So 15 weeks from now is my 37th birthday and my goal is to lose another 30. That is basically two pounds a week between now and then.
Realistic.....doable........healthy......
So in 15 weeks I can put this number up as pounds lost.....
For all you ladies who were blessed with the skinny genetics...Dang you and your superior genetics!
For all the ladies who fight the fat but take care of yourself and exercise...I aspire to be like you!
For all the ladies who yo yo but never can find that healthy groove.....I feel your pain!
For all you ladies you go to horrible extremes to lose weight...STOP!! It is not worth the harm you are doing to yourself physically...mentally....just STOP!!!
I am not sure why I picked this body before I came to this earth?! I can hear the description of my physical appearance now.....Thick hair that is neither straight or curly but frizzy...Dry flaky skin.....thin lips....stumpy legs with ample thighs....large buttocks....average height......and the metabolism speed of a sloth....I am positive I said I will take it and the next physical body that came up for grabs was Gisele Budchen.
I actually lost almost 50 pounds last year...and then...well life happened...stress happened....
this happened.....
and though I did not put all the weight back on I put back on a lot of it....boooooo.......
So after the holidays and things settled down I found myself getting ready to go on a cruise, and my summer capris not wanting to button......so me and my dust riddled treadmill had a heart to heart conversation.
It went something like this:
Oh treadmill, you have sat and gathered dust for the last few
...be patient with me and my slow speeds to begin with......work my butt till I am dripping sweat and don't let me stop until I am finished with my workout.
So I began exercising in the morning..I started barely walking a mile..then I felt myself increasing the speed and the distance...soon I was running......
I know I look similar to this when I run.......
But I am in the privacy of my basement... so I embrace my awkwardness and just go with it.......
I run for about 20-25 minutes in the morning and then if my evening allows it I run for another 20-25 minutes....it works for me..it works for me to break it up..I can't exercise for hours straight...I have attention problems and get distracted easily. When my muscles are not slightly sore the next day I increase my speed and distance to feel that little bit of burn. I will start some toning and strength training over the summer.....I am taking baby steps and right now I am just working on cardio....
I am watching what I eat but I am not a food Nazi...I eat three balanced meals...and grab a few healthy snacks throughout the day. I treat myself to some goodies here and there but always in moderation. I will have a healthy relationship with food at some point in my life...I love food.. but I don't need to LOVE food.
... my body is saying thank you and giving me lots of inside hugs....
I have lost how many pounds in 10 weeks?..........
Not biggest loser kind of weight loss but it is just right for me...some weeks I lose nothing...some weeks I lose 4 pounds.....I weigh myself once a week and cheer if I lose some and shrug it off when nothing has been lost.
So 15 weeks from now is my 37th birthday and my goal is to lose another 30. That is basically two pounds a week between now and then.
Realistic.....doable........healthy......
So in 15 weeks I can put this number up as pounds lost.....
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Where Will You Be In Ten Years?
I am an activities leader in my church. Basically twice a month I have to entertain some girls between the ages of 8-11 for an hour and half. The last time we met it was my turn to lead the activity and come up with what we were going to do. The women in the church are putting together a time capsule. The women in the church are encouraged to place a current picture, family history, and share something about themselves in the time capsule. The time capsule will be opened 30 years later ( that would make me 66 when it is opened). So my idea was to have the girls make a mini time capsule for themselves, to be opened when they are 21. I had them include a testimony or their feelings about the church, I had them fill out some information about themselves, where they see themselves in 10-13 years from now, and I took a picture of them. They are to put it somewhere they won't lose it and open it sometime in the future ( I suspect most will lose it or open it in a month).
In the process of doing this project I showed the girls some of my own personal items, pictures, and how much life changes over a ten year period, and how quickly life moves. I showed a picture of me at age 8 and things I had scrapbooked from that age. I then showed a picture of me ten years later.....it was my wedding photo...and ten years (plus a couple more years) after that......I had my family portrait with my three kids gathered around me....
First..... of all I discovered I have definitely hit that "middle age" mark. One of the questions I had the girls answer was, what is your favorite song? One of the girls said her favorite song was by some group.....a group I had never heard of......a group that apparently is very popular right now...a boy bandish type of group. I said, "I have never heard of that group."...the look I received from all the girls was look of horror..a look of....."HOLY CRAP YOU ARE OLD"...kinda look. I gave that same look at that age to older people..... that same look if they didn't know all the songs by Michael Jackson or The Police......I am now that same "older" person......sigh........
Secondly.....Eventhough I was trying to show the girls how fast time flies, I think I was more in shock about how much life can change over ten years.....
Ten years ago I had sweet two year old twins that kept me on my toes at all times. They ran around speaking jibber jabber and getting into anything they could get their pudgy little toddler fingers in to. I was in a full on mom mode...baking....cleaning....playdates....scrapbooking....it was wonderful and I am so glad I was able to be with my kiddos. However; over the next ten years economic changes happened...I became a bit restless at home.....I knew I needed something else.....I needed something a little more in my life....
so...I went back to college......and now we here we are....ten years from that toddler totting momma....
Wow! .......Ten years......gone in a blink of the eye......
.....Wonder what life has in store for the next ten years?
.....I am not sure but I am ready for the adventure..........
In the process of doing this project I showed the girls some of my own personal items, pictures, and how much life changes over a ten year period, and how quickly life moves. I showed a picture of me at age 8 and things I had scrapbooked from that age. I then showed a picture of me ten years later.....it was my wedding photo...and ten years (plus a couple more years) after that......I had my family portrait with my three kids gathered around me....
First..... of all I discovered I have definitely hit that "middle age" mark. One of the questions I had the girls answer was, what is your favorite song? One of the girls said her favorite song was by some group.....a group I had never heard of......a group that apparently is very popular right now...a boy bandish type of group. I said, "I have never heard of that group."...the look I received from all the girls was look of horror..a look of....."HOLY CRAP YOU ARE OLD"...kinda look. I gave that same look at that age to older people..... that same look if they didn't know all the songs by Michael Jackson or The Police......I am now that same "older" person......sigh........
Secondly.....Eventhough I was trying to show the girls how fast time flies, I think I was more in shock about how much life can change over ten years.....
Ten years ago I had sweet two year old twins that kept me on my toes at all times. They ran around speaking jibber jabber and getting into anything they could get their pudgy little toddler fingers in to. I was in a full on mom mode...baking....cleaning....playdates....scrapbooking....it was wonderful and I am so glad I was able to be with my kiddos. However; over the next ten years economic changes happened...I became a bit restless at home.....I knew I needed something else.....I needed something a little more in my life....
so...I went back to college......and now we here we are....ten years from that toddler totting momma....
.....I no longer have toddlers...I have two young women who are taller than me and are turning in to beautiful women.......
......we have another addition to our family who begins 1st grade next year....the sky is limit for this little one.....
....I am still madly, deeply, truly in love with this man.......
....and me...well...here I am... older... maybe a little wiser...and a graduate of college with honors....
Wow! .......Ten years......gone in a blink of the eye......
.....Wonder what life has in store for the next ten years?
.....I am not sure but I am ready for the adventure..........
You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something- your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.
~ Steve Jobs
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