"The Joy Of Enjoying"

When I am on the computer doing homework for school, I seem to find myself coming over to blogger to break up the monotony of learning about human cells and why our bodies do the things they do. On my blog I can write without grammatical judgement (please don't judge me) and lack of any cerebral depth ( I only have cerebal depth at school.. at home any fart joke makes me laugh). When I am finished I move back to the place where commas and rational thoughts matter.

A friend stopped me the other day and gave me an earnest and concerned look and asked, "Why have you not written in awhile?"......"Is everything okay?".......

I felt the urgency to come up with some grand reason as to why I have a lack of words...why I have been silent for a month......

but......the real reason...

LAZINESS!

For me to write would require some concentration beyond what it requires for me to come up with a creative word in Words With Friends or busting down a particularly hard structure in Angry Birds. I have to put a logical thought in a continuous manner when I write.....and I am to lazy to do that right now.

I am not laying around  in my t-shirt and underwear all day watching Real Housewives  ( I only do that when the kids go to bed ).  I have been organizing the house, exercising, playing with my kids,

......looking for work that will work around my school schedule......

The next two years are going to be crazy....school, work, family.....LIFE....

I am just enjoying the silence before the storm.....and enjoying time with my kiddos this summer....

....I am enjoying sleeping in...

....I am enjoying Kenzie climbing in bed with me in the morning and watching some T.V....

....I am enjoying my morning runs....

....I am enjoying the kids friends and all their giggles as they come and go all day....

....I am enjoying my evening walks with my girls and all stories they share with me....

....I am enjoying  our afternoon movie watching just because we can....

....I am enjoying trips to the libraries and the nightly reading of these books....


So my dear friend don't be concerned....life is okay...it is just a quiet summer spent at home.....


just enjoying ......

Why is it?

Why is it.............

That when you are try to make food lifestyle changes...oh hell, lets call it what it is, DIET!.. That everything in your life that you should not eat suddenly becomes an insatiable desire that will not go away? I have three sugar cookies sitting on the counter that make me salivate every time I pass them. I swear one spoke to me and said, "C'mon...you know you want be baby!".....and I swear I answered it back, "Mmmm....yes I do"...as I licked my lips.......

Okay...I will stop before this turns into the next Fifty Shades of Grey novel....but instead called, Fifty Shades of Frosting......

Why is it..........

That sometimes a child can be more profound than the most brilliant of adults?  I was driving in to Costco so I could get some healthy snacking items in my house, so that me and the sugar cookies would stop flirting with one another. My youngest car seat has been in the same place in our Ford Expedition forever now. She has decided that she is tired of this spot and every time we get in the car she moves her booster seat to somewhere else in the car. Really she only has three other spots she can move to but these small moves are apparently profound to her. On our ride in to Salt Lake she says, "Mom, moving my car seat is good for me." ...... I play along by saying, "Why is that?".....She responds by saying, "Because it gives me a whole new look at things, I can see things I have not seen before...she pauses.....and says, "Everyone should move to different seat every once in awhile so they can get a new look at things."

I know the statement was literal for her....she just thinks that everyone should see a different scenic view every once in awhile...or... that was her hint that she would like to ride shotgun at some point in her life. However, the statement made me smile...so simple.....so right. So many hot button issues in the world...maybe some of us should just look at things from a new place...and just maybe we could gain a new perspective.

Why is it.....

I can go over my legs with a razor 50 times and still miss a patch of hair on the back of my legs?

Why is it.....

I had a huge list of things I wanted to get done this summer before I head back to school this fall.....and I have done none of it so far? I will try to cram it all in to the last two weeks of summer because that is how I roll!

Why is it .......

I really want to make this now .......and eat the whole thing...four key words...Pretzel, Cookie, Peanut Butter, Pie...enough said

Why is it....

I will never have abs that look like this?................

.....four key words......Pretzel, Cookie, Peanut Butter, Pie.....enough said!

Just Catching Up

I am done with school for the summer........hmmmm....I am a bit lost because...I have no papers, quizzes, reading, tests.....I have not had a summer off of school since I started...

...honestly...it feels great.....I need this summer off to recharge my mental batteries....I took two naps last week?!..and I didn't even pull out my laptop... I cleaned house and watched T.V.....I am beginning to feel normal again. I am going to begin looking for a part time job for the summer...extra cash and some work experience in the health field.

I got my final grades..my final grades at USU...I ended with a 3.82....dang anatomy and college algebra...they knocked me off my perfect record.....math, I suck at...anatomy I blame on the professor, he sucked at teaching it......However I got an A in pathology this semester...next to anatomy it was one of my toughest courses...I am proud of that A! If you saw my textbook and all those big words in it you would be proud too!

Last weekend my mom and Aunt Jackie came to town. They did some shopping at our new mall downtown...gorgeous mall!

Mom came down to see Makenzie's dance recital. The theme this year was, "Going to the Movies".

Makenzie danced to, "When You Wish Upon A Star" and "All the Single Ladies". Makenzie has lived in her costumes since the recital....if she could, she would live everyday in dress up and costumes especially if it is sparkly or princessy.....

Adrian's 40th Birthday was Wednesday...we celebrated by leaving the kids behind and going to the movies. We saw Avengers...pretty darn good. Tried a new recipe...ended up making it twice this week....it is called earthquake cake and it is yummy..it is simple and yummy.....if you like german chocolate cake you will give it a thumbs up....I am working on losing that 30 pounds by the end of summer so I only had one slice out of those two cakes I baked.....I think I should get two thumbs up for amazing self control.

http://www.sweettreatsmore.com/2012/04/earthquake-cake.html

Saturday morning I got to go do my one of favorite traditions. I walked in the Susan G Komen walk and it was as inspirational as usual. I went in support of mom as always (MOTHER! You will come down for this next year!) but also the same friend I also walked for last year, Jill. Jill is going through her second round of chemo because it spread to her lungs but her prognosis looks good and she is beating that insidious cancer. My aunt is also a breast cancer survivor and she was there but I could not find her amongst the large crowd ( so I borrowed one of my cousins pictures she posted on Facebook...thanks :) )...come to find out she was holding one of the signs in the survivor parade .....she is also one of those strong inspiring ladies.

My Aunt Dixie and her daughters Chrystal and Sabrina ( Sorry.. I had to poach your picture)

 

Jill

On our 5K walk...new route this year....

The survivor ceremony

 My sweet neighbor Lisa

Jill...being Jill.....showing her mighty strength...she cracks me up!

Saturday we had my mother-in-laws famous gumbo...once again trying to watch what I eat...but...I will never pass up a gumbo and hush puppies...and I had just walked a 5k so a few extra yummy calories was not going to kill me.

Makenzie is done with school this week and the twins the following week...on to summer....no grand plans... just a part time job...and....

some much needed mental R and R!

Where Will You Be In Ten Years?

I am an activities leader in my church. Basically twice a month I have to entertain some girls between the ages of 8-11 for an hour and half.  The last time we met it was my turn to lead the activity and come up with what we were going to do. The women in the church are putting together a time capsule. The women in the church are encouraged to place a current picture, family history, and share something about themselves in the time capsule. The time capsule will be opened 30 years later ( that would make me 66 when it is opened). So my idea was to have the girls make a mini time capsule for themselves, to be opened when they are 21. I had them include  a testimony or their feelings about the church,  I had them fill out some information about themselves, where they see themselves in 10-13 years from now, and I took a picture of them. They are to put it somewhere they won't lose it and open it sometime in the future ( I suspect most will lose it or open it in a month).

In the process of doing this project I showed the girls some of my own personal items, pictures, and how much life changes over a ten year period, and how quickly life moves. I showed a picture of me at age 8 and things I had scrapbooked from that age. I then showed a picture of me ten years later.....it was my wedding photo...and ten years (plus a couple more years) after that......I had my family portrait with my three kids gathered around me....

First..... of all I discovered I have definitely hit that "middle age" mark. One of the questions I had the girls answer was, what is your favorite song?  One of the girls said her favorite song was by some group.....a group I had never heard of......a group that apparently is very popular right now...a boy bandish type of group. I said, "I have never heard of that group."...the look I received from all the girls was look of horror..a look of....."HOLY CRAP YOU ARE OLD"...kinda look. I gave that same look at that age to older people..... that same look if they didn't know all the songs by Michael Jackson or The Police......I am now that same "older" person......sigh........

Secondly.....Eventhough I was trying to show the girls how fast time flies, I think I was more in shock about how much life can change over ten years.....

Ten years ago I had sweet two year old twins that kept me on my toes at all times. They ran around speaking jibber jabber and getting into anything they could get their pudgy little toddler fingers in to. I was in a full on mom mode...baking....cleaning....playdates....scrapbooking....it was wonderful and I am so glad I was able to be with my kiddos. However; over the next ten years economic changes happened...I became a bit restless at home.....I knew I needed something else.....I needed something a little more in my life....

so...I went back to college......and now we here we are....ten years from that toddler totting momma....

 .....I no longer have toddlers...I have two young women who are taller than me and are turning in to beautiful women.......

 ......we have another addition to our family who begins 1st grade next year....the sky is limit for this little one.....

....I am still madly, deeply, truly in love with this man.......

....and me...well...here I am... older... maybe a little wiser...and a graduate of college with honors....

Wow! .......Ten years......gone in a blink of the eye......

.....Wonder what life has in store for the next ten years?

.....I am not sure but I am ready for the adventure..........

You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future. You have to trust in something- your gut, destiny, life, karma, whatever. This approach has never let me down, and it has made all the difference in my life.

~ Steve Jobs

And The Winner Is......

I hope everyone had a nice Easter!  I can admit that I ate to much potato salad and felt the extra weight of mayonnaise and potatoes still sitting in my belly as I ran on the treadmill this morning.

Can I also admit something else....

I am not an Easter candy fan...in fact the smell of Easter candy makes my stomach turn slightly..I don't like jelly beans, marshmallow, and chocolate bunnies.....thank goodness for Reese's eggs or Easter goodies would be a bust for me. Speaking of Reeses..I think I have mentioned Reese's is an Achilles of mine,  and I was browsing recipe websites this morning I came across this concoction......So this gets the award for:

MOST AWESOMENESS MUTATED DESSERT CONCOCTION OF THE WEEK:

http://cookiesandcups.com/

 That is a peanut butter cup baked inside chocolate chip cookie dough..that right there is a masterpiece!

That right there is a 5,000 calories.....so I need someone to share this with me when I do make them...because I will make them at some point...and I will eat them all...I have no self control!

Everyone has the right to their own views of religion, government, abortion, foreign policy, and the heated debate of  Miracle Whip or mayonnaise. I am a fascinated by all religions and respect their beliefs. When I see someone maliciously poke at a religion and I don't care what religion they are poking at..it bothers me. I remember watching Bill Maher's movie relgiulous and wondered what jollies one gets from making fun of a Jewish man praying at the wailing wall in Jerusalem. It is fine if you don't believe in organized religion or believe in any higher being but why would you belittle someone else's belief...something that gives that person purpose and peace?  Anyways I witnessed one of these people this week and so he gets the award of:

Close-minded, belittling, bigoted, ignorant jackhole of the week:

Lawerence ODonnell

I have said I am not a huge "chick flick" fan. I am of the minority when I say I don't swoon over Twilight and I know I am of the minority when I say that by the end of the Titanic movie I wanted to shove Jack in the icy water and possibly Rose with him. It was a painfully long movie and we all knew what was going happen in the end. They have recently re-released Titanic into the theater and I would rather have a root canal than sit through that movie again...but ....again....if this is what they did with it then I am there! This gets the award of:

MOST AWESOME CAMEO APPEARANCE OF STORM TROOPERS IN A  MOVIE

Titanic Done Right!

First of all I am not saying you should not be prepared in case of an emergency, or worst yet a natural disaster, or an apocalyptic disaster. However, there is a show on National Geographic Channel called Doomsday Preppers...this show thoroughly entertains me. My all time favorite episode was a husband who was preparing for a pandemic disease that he is convinced is going to wipe us all out. His bug out solution was purchasing a cave in a mountain to hide his family with his 50 boxes of aspirin (not sure how aspirin is going to save someone in the case of pandemic style disease?).....PROBLEM....his wife is Cambodian and survived the Cambodian wars with her family hiding in caves. The wife was having war flashbacks sitting in this cave and basically told her husband she would rather die than sit in that cave. He might want to rethink  his bug out plans! Anyways, here is my last award of the week....for best CRAZY doomsday prepper of the week. One should always prepare for one's pet in case of disaster....I am just not sure if shooting kitty in the back of the head at any sign of trouble would be my first thought?

WORST DOOMSDAY PREPPER PET OWNER





Wishin' and Hopin

There was  a singer named Dusty Springfield who was popular in the 60's. She sang a song called, Wishin' and Hopin. The first line of the song is:

"Wishing and hoping and thinking and praying, Planning and dreaming each night....."

I sent my nursing school application in at the end of February...I should be hearing soon.....the final answer.....the answer to what I need to do next...and my thoughts are filled with wishing that I can stay here to finish my schooling...hoping I get accepted...thinking about alternative plans if I don't get in....praying life is taking me where I am meant to be.......planning for the best situation but also preparing myself if I don't get in....dreaming, this will be over soon.......

I have been busy and distracted over the last month but now that the final answer is drawing closer I am ready...ready to move on.....ready to be a Weber State nursing student.....or....

...or......????....I honestly don't know the answer right now.....I am not sure where I am headed otherwise???.....

I am in limbo right now...everything is limbo right now.....

I need some definitive paths for awhile...I know life is never definitive, and you never know what is around the corner... but life as of late has been a continual question of..."What is around the corner"

Think about when you are on a long road trip....you have areas of the road where you have to hold on to the steering with both hands and concentrate on the sharp turns, hazardous road conditions, heavy traffic...then there are places in the road where it is straight, and you can see for miles ahead, and not another car in sight...you casually hold the wheel, and take in the sights around you......

I need a straight road for awhile....I need some calm....I am tired of holding to that steering wheel with all my strength waiting for what is around the corner......

In the meantime,....I am

.....Wishing and hoping and thinking and praying, Planning and dreaming........



Just Say No to Bo Derek Braids!

I am an observer of all things around me. I watch people, listen, and form opinions in my head of what I have observed. Don't think I am just sitting around judging people all day.....people just fascinate me...it is not to judge...is to observe, collect data, and then share what I have observed with others. I also do this with myself...I mentally observe myself, and I am the first to point out to others the data I have collected on myself....it is all very scientific? So here is some observations I made on my vacation....

OBSERVATION 1:
Why do people over the age of 18 feel it necessary to put Bo Derek braids in their hair when vacationing in Caribbean locations?....Okay, Okay, this is a judgemental thing...I try to not be judgemental...but this is a fashion choice...this is a bad hair choice that white woman over the age of 18 should not do....on kids it looks fine...adults, no it does not!

Okay...I will judge myself now since I just judged some random woman I took a picture of to point out the fact that white woman should not do this (and while we are talking about this woman, DO NOT wear floral print from head to toe!!!!)...okay, back to me...

OBSERVATION 2:
So my sister made a very insightful observation while cruising. She stated that all cruising does is prepare you for elderly care living. They have daily activities, set meal times, entertainment, bingo,and socializing. After several days on the ship I found myself being just a fraction of  a second away from drinking Ensure and wearing orthopedic shoes.

Here is the thing with me....I am not a live it up all night kind of girl.....give me a book, chair, some sun, and a pool to sit by and I am thrilled.....and because I would eat a large decadent meal at dinner and had been in the sun all day..... I was ready for bed by 10pm......

Really it came down to...I had time just for me...nobody needing anything from me...no children demanding my attention....no tests or papers to write! I was relaxed...and when I am relaxed....I get sleepy....

Can I share a true story.....My niece and I  actually avoided going to a late show so that we could get up early to go play Bingo....yes, you heard that right.....I did not dance the night away, or exchange witty banter with the gays in the martini lounge, or experience the late night comedy act because..... I had free bingo cards to play in the morning.....

Another true story....My niece and I went back to our stateroom so we could finish reading our Hunger Games books while my mom and sister went dancing and living up the night life that the cruise had to offer......what is sadder....me in bed by 10?.... or my 22 year old niece in bed by 10?...hmmmm

see.....just a fraction of a second short of drinking Ensure and wearing orthopedic shoes.....

OBSERVATION 3:
When you take several pictures on vacation you always end up with some that are quickly deleted off of your camera because of the blurriness or an unflattering pose...but when a professional photo is taken  that is displayed on a wall for a ship of 2,000 people to see...well...how do you deal with that....

you stand there and laugh hysterically at the said photo...take a picture of it with your phone...and quickly decide it is a contender for awkward family photos.......maybe I should have spent the 19.00 bucks and purchased the original...because it is CLASSIC!

This picture was taken on a very windy excursion in St. Marteen....Not sure what my mom and I are looking at...Leana is proudly displaying her coffee...and Gabby, she is really the only one that looks decent....so may I present ...awkward family photo 2012

OBSERVATION 4:

My mom...my poor mom...this is not really a new observation...but she endures copious amounts of teasing from us. She figures when we stop teasing her then we have stopped caring and loving her. Really we tease her out of love...I promise!!!! So the first day we came together for this vacation we began the quotes or word of the day because...well...my mom can be darn funny sometimes and can come up with some funny one liners...so here is a sampling....

"Commando"........I will share this story only with permission...

"It is just like being at the ocean"......said as was we were in the middle of the ocean

"Cruising must be a gay thing"........after observing several gay couples on the ship

"I knew a boy in high school that had a woody"......long pause.......giggle from us......"...a woody wagon!"..........

There were several more ...the list goes on.....I love that woman...she can give me comedic material for years!

Observation 5:

Men...if you have hairy backs......landscape it or wax it.....when it is blowing in the breeze...not attractive!

Men...please leave the speedo at home unless you have Michael Phelps body.......

Woman....just because the bikini comes in your size....does not mean you should wear it....

Woman....please ...if you are hairy....if you know what I  mean...landscape also.......when it is blowing in the breeze...not attractive!

Observation 6:

If they offer you a drink in the Caribbean that is called, "The Painkiller"......be aware the drink got this name for a reason....a lesson a fellow 20 year old traveler learned...it may taste sweet and yummy at the time..... but not so much when it is coming back up later.....

Observation 7:

Why is that when a buffet offers 24 hours of food...you feel the need to eat 18 of it?


Observation 8:

Old people are rude...especially at the buffet.....don't get between them and the beets!


...enough said I suppose...

Well on to my last and final post from my vacation.....next we have......

Norovirus.....stench.....I.V.'s...Dr.Cuba.....flirting paramedics....ghetto Miami hospital......

TO BE CONTINUED:

Life's Little Pleasures

At the moment I enjoy:

This song:


This quote:

These pictures:

This necklace:

This mascara:

These cupcakes: (They are baked with a Cadbury egg in the middle)

This book:

These ears:

I also like at this moment:

* That I have finished three weeks of homework for school so I have no school work for the next three weeks!

*That I have lost 20 pounds since January 16!

* That I can run two miles on the treadmill now..that is a miracle with my fat a**!

* That I will be in the Caribbean sun in 8 days!

* That I have completed and mailed my nursing school application

and........you know what else I am enjoying..what else I am liking.....

*My life....life is happy.....life is content.....

Life is good!

Weighty Issue

My news content this week consisted of whatever hit the MSN homepage on the internet as I was passing by on my way to my online classes. One story hit me and made me cringe, I think most of you are probably aware of it, it was the Adele and Karl Lagerfeld story. Apparently Karl was quoted as saying, "Adele is a little too fat, but her face is beautiful and her voice is divine."

Here is Adele......

and Mr. Lagerfeld.........

Now if you were out and about, what person would you give a second glance at, and maybe giggle a little???? .......hmmm

Anyways on to my point.....Shame....SHAME on you Mr. Lagerfeld! This woman has established herself as one of the most influential female singers of our time..she is one of those rare talents that catches everyone's attention and her numerous awards prove it..YET....all you can see is her body....

This body that we all see...is a body that a lot of us women identify with. We don't identify with runway models and Hollywood starlets. Women see someone like Adele..they see a women that looks like them and and that gives them confidence that is okay not to be a size 2...success does not depend on being a size 2!

...her face is beautiful.....your fat but your face is beautiful....that does not cover up or make up for the words you said...what an insult! It is like saying your beautiful but your stupid..or ..your beautiful but I hate your freckles.......

Mr. Lagerfeld my heart hurt when I heard these comments...I don't have a runaway body...I will never have a runway body... but I know there is more to me than my fuller figure and curves....I would never want to hear,"she is smart, but she is a little too fat!" or " she is a good mom, but she is a little too fat!"

....I would never want my daughters to hear...." You have beautiful eyes but your a little too fat."

Who would you say such things?.....

....only a man behind sunglasses, a fake tan, botoxed forehead, and lipoed stomach would say such things...

Shame...Shame on you Mr. Karl Lagerfeld

Dear Life, Here is everything I really want to say!

I had to pay a parking ticket that I did not deserve so I paid it but I included a letter and proof why I did not deserve it. The parking ticket was only ten dollars...so why all the fuss..because..I could..I could write  a letter expressing my feelings...I began to wonder if I could do that with everything else going on in my life because I can honestly say I would feel a lot better....

I had to go do my Utah CNA skill certification...I won't know if I passed until next week...I am pretty sure I passed...I feel like I did everything right and I know for a fact my testing on the vitals was perfect .....but of course the pessimist side of me will sit and dwell on it until I get my official certification. I need this to be official because I am required to add it to my nursing application. If I fail because I did not say one specific word, which has been known to happen they will get a letter that goes as follows:

Dear Utah CNA certification department,

Remember this...someday.....you will be laying in a hospital bed...and I will be your nurse someday...I will remember you as one of those people who delayed my nursing application...bwahahahahaha!

Sociopathic potential nursing student,

Michele

I am taking a pathology class that is kicking my butt. The professor has decided because he has added an extra hour on to the class it will allow him sufficient amount of time to go through a 1132 pages worth of material.  We meet a total of 4 hours a week for 4 months....this equates to basically a test once a week...4 chapters worth to study...weekly...very detailed chapters...that take me days to dissect and figure out.........he used to do a lot of take home tests...but no not this semester......"sigh".... So all this means I am studying every weekend and other endless hours with my face in a pathology book. I would like to say to my professor:

Dear professor,

I know you have a nerdy passion for gram negative bacteria and a flair for pronouncing any Latin word that we come across with a heavy Latin accent that ends in copious amounts of spit spiddling from your mouth but I feel I need to remind you this is entry level pathophysiology not graduate school advance pathophysiology. I cannot process the information being given to me in the short amount of time I have been given...you are slowly chipping away at any amount of sanity I have left...I am on the edge...I am clinging with a pinkie at this point.....

Unstable, frantic, anxiety ridden, clueless, annoyed

Michele

My other two courses are fairly simple and I will be completely honest...I just want my A with little effort on my part because I basically don't care about the subject...I got an email from one of my professor that said I needed to participate sooner in the discussion sessions..I turn them in on time..just at last minute. I feel like sending a personal email  that states the following:

Dear Professor,

I know you like discussing this subject, that is why you teach this subject and I am glad you have found your passion. I on the other hand want to make it clear I have reached my threshold of information and sanity and will not be able to store what you are teaching in this class. You are the last of my classes before my nursing program begins and all your class is doing for me is filling my required class credit load and unfortunately pottery 101 was not available. I will get an A because my perfectionist side will not allow anything else but I will get this A with last minute discussion topics, test taking, and assigned papers. So thank you for your kind suggestion of posting my discussion topics earlier so I can get more responses from fellow students but I will have to nicely tell you "NO" and I will continue posting at last minute because I really don't care about my fellow online students thoughts and opinions.

   From your  uninterested...burned out...lazy....procrastinating student

              Michele!

And last but not least I need to fill out my nursing application and have it turned in by the end of the month....you have to include a paper about yourself..it includes accomplishments of mine...hobbies..my dreams...my wants...why I want this program...blah, blah, blah!!!! My ideal letter would go something like this:

Dear Weber Nursing Admissions,

Lets be honest I am not a typical college student with accomplishments that include university glee club, newspaper editor, and sigma phi alum, and track all star. I am 36 with a family, at best my daily accomplishments include a daily shower, less than 15 dishes in my sink, all the kids homework done before 8pm in the evening, and less than 5 loads of laundry to fold.

Hobbies or leisure activities? What is that word...it sounds familiar?! Birdwatching, mountain climbing, stamp collecting....no..lets see..my hobby is...children evading. It is simple my children yell mom at least 120 times a day and I evade them. It is a simple game of cat and mouse..it takes strategy and skill...I avoid, dodge, lay low, side step until they finally go find their father. It is truly a sport that takes time to master.

Why do I want to go to your school? Ummmm...because I have no other options and if I don't get in I am going to have to move my family to Texas...Arizona...Honduras...Timbuktu...just so I can find a nursing program that won't take me 6 years to get through.

           Desperate, exasperated, neurotic, tired, running out of time,

Michele

...oh all the things I wish I could say in a letter.............."sigh"

I Need To Discuss Something Really Important!

First......

Not Important Stuff:

 So I spent a greater part of four days studying for a pathology exam. I get the test and guess what...it was exactly like the practice exam he gave us...the exam took ten minutes to do. I will never complain about given an easy A...but...it felt like thanksgiving dinner, all that work and over within minutes. I felt like standing up on my desk and reciting the importance of water sodium balance in our body just so I could expel some of that knowledge crammed into my brain. Do you want to know the importance of water sodium balance? Call me.. I can tell you in great detail.....

Makenzie proceeded to tell me half way through Wal-Mart that she was not feeling well...she threw up by the doughnut case...there was a lady getting some doughnuts, she left her box sitting there... I don't know why, it is just puke!?....I hope you noted the sarcasm there?.....yup my child was puking in Wal-Mart...clean up in aisle 4...classy stuff right there!!!

There was a little boy at McDonalds that ran around the place like a demon...climbing on tables...screaming at the top of his lungs.. his mother was completly oblivious! Finally she checked back into reality and called for her son......his name...Damien....ironic....... he is satan's spawn child!

Now the important stuff...

..okay so it is not important but now that you are reading this you mine as well finish reading it for my own selfish reasons because that is how I roll:

 I need a new hairstyle, and I need your opinion. I am keeping my fingers crossed I get into the fall nursing program...I need to be able to pull my hair into a ponytail during this time....Clinicals....early morning...I need to be able to do my hair in a short amount of time. With the hairstyle I have now I have to wash it the morning of and style it. It does not take me long but a ponytail would be a fraction of the time and hassle. I like my hair but I need convenience right now. I do not have the patience to grow out my bangs, I don't even know if I have the patience to grow out my hair at this point but I will give it a try....Lets look at what I am thinking...Not to long...layers...and the some bangs...

Perfection...this is what I am thinking...could pull up in a pony...layers...looks cute when down..bangs ...what do you think?......

This is a little choppier, a little edgier...could be more maintenance than the above hairstyle...

Good length.....good bangs.....

Cute....but is it long enough for a pony?...and my hair is much thicker than this..

Cute, Cute, Cute...good hair color...what do you think of this one?

I keep coming back to this......

My hair is more this thickness,...this is a a little longer than I want to go but I like it....it has layers

Exactly the length of pony I am looking for and it works with that style of bangs.

Okay so now it is time to give an opinion....keep my hair short?...grow it out?...what style did you like?....Will I look like any of the above celebrities if I do this?...ignore the last question....I have self-image issues ........Are bangs okay?.....I wish I could afford extensions like these actresses.......opinions, suggestions....anything??????

Random Saturday Thoughts

1). My definition of clean and my husbands definition of clean are very different.

2). Makenzie still does not know the difference between the twins, she just calls them sisters, I hope she figures it out sometime. Honestly I don't think she really cares to learn, they are just two people who live in her house and compete for my attention in her world.

3). I will start my 45 day strict diet and exercise regime Monday to prepare for my eating binge on my upcoming cruise

4). I will most likely gain back any weight I loose in my 45 day diet while on the cruise because of my buffet binging.

5). I did not have to buy one textbook this semester, a friend had all the books for me to use, this is huge.... this saves me money...and I like saving money....I need to repay her somehow???

6). My husband ate my last special mint buttercream cookie I got at the bakery...does he not know that I am beginning a strict diet Monday that does not allow such treats....I may not speak to him the rest of the night...you don't mess with my cookies!

7). My kids have been eating their weight in cuties (mini oranges found at supermarket)... they are addictive.

8). Is it okay to eat 10 deserts at buffet? ...because I probably will.

9). Must hit the tanning beds..legs are way to white for the Caribbean sun.

10). I have Real Housewives episodes on my DVR and I want to watch them but my kids are watching T.V......I am silently glaring at them...Don't they know I am 3 episodes behind... a lot can happen in 3 episodes...

11) I need help!

12).It is January 14th and I barely finished putting away my Christmas stuff today.

13). I have class tomorrow for my CNA...class on Sundays????....this is just inhumane treatment at this point.

14). My children think if they throw trash between the cushions in the couch and behind the couch I won't notice...I notice!!!

15). I am craving a mint buttercream cookie...oh wait...my husband ate it....

16). I have two weeks of laundry that needs to be folded yet all I can think about is watching Real Housewives...maybe if I tell the children to go fold laundry I can watch Real Housewives?

17). Makenzie is addicted to Mario Kart on the Nintendo DS..we may need to have an intervention?

18). I think  Chinese food is on the dinner menu tonight.....mmmmmmm..I am going to miss food for the next 45 days. So I will eat a few extra pot stickers tonight...sure would have been nice to have a mint buttercream cookie for dessert.

19). ....I am distracted now...the kids left the room...I am watching Real Housewives Beverly Hills....

20). ...dang it, I wanted that darn cookie!!!!

What Is On Your Bucket List?

As I approach the second half of my schooling...I am already making a list of some things I would like to do once I graduate. First, Lasik surgery for the eye's...second, a family trip with the kiddos...third, a trip for just me and the hubby. It may take a few years to cross these things off the list but it is a mini bucket list of things I would like to reward myself with after all our sacrifices and hard work over the last few years. Bucket List... upon my browsing of my admitted addiction, pinterest, I came across a website that posts potential things to put on a bucket list. So I have saved random ones here and there that make me smile and peak my interest. So here is my bucket list...of course everything is possible but obviously some things are more realistic than others...so, for fun here is a sample of my bucket list of very realistic and maybe not as realistic dreams.....but nonetheless if I can even do half of these things in my life I think that would be awesome!!

Lets see????...I got married YOUNG....like 18 young....so that means we could make it to those 60+ wedding anniversaries. Adrian will be deaf,  I will be blind, and we will both be senile. He will have his jazzy scooter, I will have my walker with tennis balls on the legs. I will yell at him to put in his teeth he will yell at me to take my meds.....I will still call him my pet name for him "Bubba" and one of us will say, "I love you" and the other will answer as we have always answered since we were young, "I love you more!"......this wish will always be number one on any of my bucket list!

Seriously who would not want to do this?

It is a dream....I love the ocean and to have a house by the ocean....wow, how amazing would that be!

Antarctica might be the toughest one to get to but wouldn't be awesome to say you have been to all seven!

Maybe when I am in Antarctica I can scratch this off the list?

I am not sure what fascinates me about this place so much but I want to see it someday.

 This requires me to be a size I like..... and .....an expensive clothing budget.....

Aahhhhhh!

As long as it is not a Paula Deen cookbook because the 400lbs of butter she uses in her recipes...well...my thighs could not handle that!

C'mon this would just be fun!

I WILL see this one day!

Checking this off my list in about 8 weeks!!!!!

Oh ya.....my luck.. that dart would land on Iran so I would have to make it best out of three.

Ya......no comment!

Okay I don't know if my pear shape would allow this..so lets say....skinnier!

After I get those "skinnier" legs and have seen the Sistine Chapel then it is time for some pizza!